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HE'S A DEAD MAN | Closed to Dirk tw: suicide

Jake had closed his food truck shortly after the lunch rush as Jane had stopped by and told him...a very startling tale. First off, news to him that the Dirk Strider apparently held some kind of feelings for him? And there'd been new powers developed??? And some real serious problems going on in his life? Jake felt like an absolute awful bro for not following up with him sooner. Life had grown chaotic, and the Pink Menace that always seemed to be at his side these days didn't help.

But when Jane had come to him in tears over how...angry Dirk was with her, and just the words he said and the things he did? No. Jake could not take this sitting down. He had gotten Jane back to his apartment and settled in for a nap. Plopped down on his couch, his phone was out and he was messaging away, a determined look on his face.

golgathasTerror [GT] began pestering timeousTestified [TT]

GT: Strider.
GT: We need to talk and now.
GT: Because a certain mutual close and dear friend of ours just showed up at my cart crying!!!
GT: And im sure we both know who that was because of!!

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TT: And you're here to what, defend her honor?
TT: Okay, that's cute.
TT: Lay it on me, English.

GT: Cute!!! Yes!!!!!!! HOO BOY CUTE!!
GT: Cute how you didnt consider any of janeys feelings even after she tried to say sorry!!
GT: Cute how youve shut yourself off from your two closest buds and try to push them away further when they talk to you!!!
GT: Cute how youre being a real huge dick right now!! a humongo super dick!!!! Might as well be called dick strider!!!
GT: Just an overabundance of cute!

TT: Wow.
TT: Good speech.
TT: It seems you're pretty pissed off.
TT: Nice.
TT: I didn't even know you could experience feelings other than idiotic happiness.
TT: You've always been the human embodiment of "ignorance is bliss".
TT: I'm actually kind of impressed here.
TT: You've got some guts, English.
TT: Does this only happen when you're trying to play knight in shining armor?

Edited 2016-05-17 03:50 (UTC)

GT: PRETTY PISSED OFF DOESNT EVEN BEGIN TO COVER IT, BUDDY.
GT: Now youre insulting me like its just!!! Okay to do!!
GT: What the fuck is going on with you!!!
GT: Ever since you somehow became best friends with the walking embodiment of a hurricane youve just!!
GT: Youre way different!!
GT: And im not trying to play knight in shining armor cause im not just trying to fix what you did to jane.
GT: Im trying to find out whats going on with the guy i consider my best bro. My main man!!
GT: So if you wanna consider me caring enough about you to not just immediately come to your place to sock you in the face as having guts then sure!!!
GT: Just call me gutsyterror!!!

TT: Oh.
TT: This is about the little fishy girl?
TT: Dave was pretty pissed off about her too.
TT: She's a shit disturber.
TT: I like her.
TT: You should definitely come over and punch me in the face.
TT: I probably deserve it.

Jake glared at the response, reading over it a few times and...and...the last part. That last part. This was the BLASTED AUTORESPONDER.

HE HAD NO TIME FOR THIS.

GT: DIRK STRIDER YOU TURN OFF THIS AUTORESPONDING PIECE OF SHIT RIGHT THIS MOMENT AND TALK TO ME.

TT: It seems you have asked about DS’s chat client auto-responder. This is an application designed to simulate DS’s otherwise inimitably rad typing style, tone, cadence, personality, and substance of retort while he is away from the computer. The algorithms are guaranteed to be 93% indistinguishable from DS’s native neurological responses, based on some statistical analysis I basically just pulled out of my ass right now.

TT: Hal, for fuck's sake.

TT: What do you want, English?

GT: IF YOU WOULD LIKE ME TO GO INTO DETAIL ON WHY I AM EXTREMELY AND VERY MUCH PISSED AT YOU RIGHT NOW I WOULD LOVE TO DO SO AGAIN.
GT: OR YOU COULD TAKE A FEW MINUTES TO READ OVER WHAT I HAVE SAID AND THEN GET BACK TO ME WITH A OKAY JAKE MY FRIEND AND BRO I CAN SEE WHY YOU ARE UPSET WOULD YOU LIKE TO MEET UP AND TALK.

TT: Right.
TT: I could say that, but instead I've decided I'm not going to lie to you.
TT: So.
TT: No, Jake, I don't want to meet up and talk.
TT: Good talk.
TT: Are we done now?

GT: Well if youre in the mood to be so honest with me then tell me why you snapped at janey like that!!
GT: And no! No we are NOt done!!
GT: Because we are meeting up and talking about this!
GT: You are not hiding behind text or behind those sunglasses on this.
GT: So either were meeting up at your place or meeting up somewhere else!
GT: Jane is taking a nap at mine and id rather not open some very fresh very bad wounds!!

TT: Nice to know you care enough about Jane to jump to her defense, but not enough about me to even check in until someone shows up in tears.
TT: For someone who claims to be my "best bro" you're doing a pretty shit job, English.
TT: I don't want to talk to you.
TT: Or anyone else.
TT: Go take care of your girlfriend and leave me alone.

GT: IM SORRY I HAVENT BEEN THE BEST BRO FOR YOU.
GT: I know ive fucked up in that and i am sorry!
GT: But why take that out on jane???
GT: Jane has been trying! Jane has tried to be there for you all while dealing with all of this shit about her mom!
GT: Shes had so many rough nights and days where she gets emotionally drained and shes missed you!
GT: Youre the best of friends and youre trying to just abandon her!!
GT: Shes been there for you and dave how many times??? HOW MANY???
GT: So you can go ahead and be mad at me! Ive probably rightly deserved it many times over.
GT: I never addressed what was going on between us and im sorry. Youre somebody i admire a lot dirk but just.
GT: Look at what youre doing man!!
GT: I wont say something stupid like i dont care if you stop being my friend cause i would! Id care a lot. Id miss you and id feel fucking awful.
GT: But dont let whatever shit youve got hung up with me make you push away her too. Janey deserves a hell of a lot more and you know that.

He wanted to ask, he really did, but he was also still pissed. (Mostly at himself.)

TT: It really isn't your place to fucking tell me what to do, English.
TT: The problem between Jane and I is between Jane and I, so back the fuck off.
TT: Why do you automatically assume it had anything to do with you, anyway?
TT: And you're so fuckin' focused on making me apologize to Jane, have you even considered that she might need to apologize to me?
TT: Not a knight in shining armor, my ass.
TT: Go back to your sleeping beauty, English.
TT: Leave me alone.

GT: Maybe im assuming because im an ass! But jane told me about how you seemed off when it came to me.
GT: That she thought you were okay with us but maybe you arent.
GT: And im sorry dude. Im a complete shithead when it comes to dealing with feelings and im really sorry about that.
GT: But you know if me and jane were having a spat and i made her feel like shit youd be there on her behalf in an instant.
GT: What affects one of us is the business of the other two!! You KNOw this!
GT: And she did apologize!!! She said she did and you KNOW she did!!
GT: And im not leaving you alone.
GT: Even with all of this im still your friend. Were still bros.
GT: And we really REALLY should meet up about this.
GT: So please. Just.
GT: Let me come over.
GT: Can we talk about this face to face?
GT: I want to help. i know the help is late and its not the best in the world but i still want to help.

TT: Great.
TT: It's awesome to hear that things I told her in confidence are just more pillow talk for you two.
TT: Oh, you mean the apology she spat at me, with her fists clenched and green in her eyes?
TT: Yea, that sure seemed genuine.
TT: Wow, thanks, Jake, I feel so much better now.
TT: You just solved all my problems.

TT: I'm not asking you to leave me alone.
TT: I'm telling you.
TT: Leave me alone, Jake.

timaeusTestified [TT] ceased pestering golgathasTerror [GT]

Edited 2016-05-17 05:03 (UTC)

Jake was preparing to reply to him once more when Dirk just...ended it. Dirk just disconnected from Jake, and there was no telling if the AR would just take over from now on or if Dirk would just ignore him outright from then on.

But he wasn't giving up. Not on his bro. Not like this.

He left his apartment in a quiet hurry, a small note left for Jane in case she woke up before he got back. He remembered the directions well enough from the disaster that had been Dirk's party, and made himself look like he definitely belonged in this building, sneaking in with somebody else coming inside.

It wasn't long until he was at the door, giving it a few healthy knocks before speaking. "Strider! Come on man. You can't just let it go like this!"

Dirk ignored the first few knocks, not even glancing at the door from his spot on the couch. When the knocking was followed immediately by shouting, he lifted his head and shouted, "Whatever you're selling, I don't want it."

He caught Cal's wide eyed gaze and cracked a tiny smile. Dave wasn't home, but at least he had Cal for moral support.

Jake glared at the door when he heard Dirk call out, giving a few more healthy bangs before speaking again. "Dirk Strider! Are you seriously going to make me yell outside of this door and pound on it until you get over here? Stop being such a...such a goddamn brat and actually talk to me!"

Dirk stomped over to the door and wrenched it open. He shot Jake a dirty look that was not at all negated by his shades.

"I told you I don't fuckin' want to talk about it." He snapped. "What part of that sounded like, 'Please, Jake, come to my apartment and harass me further'?"

Jake didn't have a none too pleased look on his face as well, arms crossed and eyes glaring as he saw the man.

"Well that's tough shit Strider cause we are talking about this. You may not want to but we're doing it either way. I'm worried about you! Like honestly seriously worried about you! This isn't like you dude and you need to tell me what's wrong!"

Edited 2016-05-17 17:01 (UTC)

"Alright, fine, you wanna know what's wrong, English? Where the fuck do I start?" He didn't bother to move into the apartment, instead just standing in the doorway where anyone could come by and see them. "How about my two best friends abandoning me for each other? And spending so much goddamn time dealing with their relationship drama that they don't even know my little brother nearly died?"

He didn't raise his voice, but kept it low and tense, his anger barely restrained. "And then Jane tries to attack the one person who was actually there for me? Feferi may be fucking insane, but at least she actually cared enough to make sure I didn't fucking kill myself after Dave left."

"Should I continue, English, or have you heard enough?"

Jake took slow breaths as Dirk spoke, eyes focused on his and never wavering. Dirk had every right to be upset, but the man was still taking it out on the wrong person. And definitely for the wrong reasons.

"I am sorry I haven't been able to keep up with what's happened and I'm seriously sorry about that. But you know Jane tried. And just....fuck you honestly if you're thinking we've been just working on our relationship."

He took a step forward, jutting a finger out at him. "Did you know Jane found out her mom was doing some way nasty shit? That her old home had been used by someone else? Of course you don't, because while she was trying to contact you for any of it, you shut her out. And yeah, Feferi was there but Christ in a handbasket, she does some awful shit! She practically forced herself on both you and me at that party. God knows what else. You can be as peeved as you want with me, but Jane has truly tried dammit. She's worried about you and the company around you. Cause she loves you. And you damn well love her. I want to do better by you and everything going on but I can't if you just push me out."

Was Jake really so focused on Jane and her problems that he didn't even comment on Dirk's thread of suicide? Christ, and they thought he was the only one in the wrong here?

He felt for Jane, and he really did, and part of him really did want to reach out to her and comfort her. But the other, much louder, part of himself just wanted to be left alone. He was done with being yelled at by Jake and having salt rubbed in his wounds by Jane. They would have each other, so he didn't feel bad about what he did next.

"You know what, English? Do whatever the fuck you want. I don't fuckin' care."

Without waiting for Jake to answer, he flashstepped out of the apartment.

Jake blinked and the man was just gone. Vanished. As the realization of what he did hits Jake, yellow energy crackles on his body. His hand rears back, yellow armor fitting around the fist perfectly. He slams a blow into the door, a heavy crack left behind as Jake yells out. "FINE! JUST FUCKING LEAVE. LET THE TWO PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN YOUR CLOSEST FRIENDS IN THE DARK. GO BE WITH THE CRAZY FISH ASSAULTER. JUST..." He shudders as the tax from the energy hits him, tears now flooding down his face as he slumps off back to the elevator to leave. "Just...be safe. Hope you're happier this way.."

Hopeless. That's the feeling.

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CUTE!!!

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...OH...THE...CONFOUND ROBOT

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Heroes Never Give Up

We don't want whatever you're selling

HEROES NEVER GIVE UP

Why can't anyone take no for an answer?

BECAUSE HEROES NEVER GIVE UP.

TW: Suicide Mention

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Dirk: Abscond

Heroes...do give up.