Jake shook his head again, rubbing his forehead still. "No, not even a little bit...you didn't even come up so just..." He tensed a bit when she said that, flushing and slapping his cheeks. He really didn't need to be dealing with attraction to another lady on top of all this.
The hopelessness surged within him again at that thought, hand clutching his chest. Idiot. First you fail to get through to Dirk, can't even get him to make right with Janey, and now you're just getting flustered by another woman? You're the worst. A complete failure.
And LORD, who was Dirk? When their eyes met, his were now more angry than anything, pointing at her accusingly. "He's my bes-...he was...my best bro! And it was his party you were at! A party he probably didn't even want, playing a game he didn't even want either! But noooooo, that's Feferi Peixes for you! 'I'll just do whatever the fuck I want and not care about the consequences or who I hurt in the process!'"
He slumped back against the bench, hands clenched against his arms. "And just...yeah. I'm pathetic. I'm the most pathetic right now. Couldn't talk him out of whatever funk he's in, couldn't get him to at least talk to Janey again...Just a full on pathetic idiot."
He's Not KIND of Pathetic! He's REALLY Pathetic Thank You!
The hopelessness surged within him again at that thought, hand clutching his chest. Idiot. First you fail to get through to Dirk, can't even get him to make right with Janey, and now you're just getting flustered by another woman? You're the worst. A complete failure.
And LORD, who was Dirk? When their eyes met, his were now more angry than anything, pointing at her accusingly. "He's my bes-...he was...my best bro! And it was his party you were at! A party he probably didn't even want, playing a game he didn't even want either! But noooooo, that's Feferi Peixes for you! 'I'll just do whatever the fuck I want and not care about the consequences or who I hurt in the process!'"
He slumped back against the bench, hands clenched against his arms. "And just...yeah. I'm pathetic. I'm the most pathetic right now. Couldn't talk him out of whatever funk he's in, couldn't get him to at least talk to Janey again...Just a full on pathetic idiot."