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logah2016-04-28 11:32 pm
drawntotheflame) wrote in logah2016-04-28 11:32 pm
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Feeling Like A Real Pain In The Neck | Closed to Karkat
Kanaya had done as much work as she could before her jitters became too much and she began to pace. Even if she trusted herself to be in public she couldn't go for a nighttime walk because she glowed in the dark! She forced herself to calm down when anxiety-induced claws pressed into her palm.
Old failed garment in hand, she typed a few messages to Karkat and then began to meticulously rip it to shreds.
grimAuxiliatrix [GA] began pestering carcinoGeneticist [CG]
GA: Karkat
GA: Do You Have Time To Talk I Experienced A Rather Distressing Occurrence This Afternoon And As Uncomfortable As It Is For Me To Spill My Guts All Over This Chat Like A Cheaply Made 80s Horror Film All Other Options Are Currently Unavailable And My Hope Is That Discussion May Dislodge Some Of The Tension That Has Decided To Burrow Its Way Into My Chest
Old failed garment in hand, she typed a few messages to Karkat and then began to meticulously rip it to shreds.
grimAuxiliatrix [GA] began pestering carcinoGeneticist [CG]
GA: Karkat
GA: Do You Have Time To Talk I Experienced A Rather Distressing Occurrence This Afternoon And As Uncomfortable As It Is For Me To Spill My Guts All Over This Chat Like A Cheaply Made 80s Horror Film All Other Options Are Currently Unavailable And My Hope Is That Discussion May Dislodge Some Of The Tension That Has Decided To Burrow Its Way Into My Chest
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As he read the message, however, his brow furrowed with concern. It seemed Kanaya hadn't messaged him with idle chat. He especially didn't like the way she was vividly describing spilling her guts. Hurriedly, he saved his essay and closed the document, opening pesterchum instead. Homework could wait; whatever was bothering Kanaya was more important.
CG: YEAH, OF COURSE. TELL ME WHAT HAPPENED.
CG: ARE YOU OK?
Karkat waited anxiously for a reply, tapping his fingers on his desk.
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GA: I Am Not Physically Injured
GA: Well I Was But Fortunately I Evaded The More Serious Consequences Of My Brief But Significant Moment Of Maladroitness
GA: But Unfortunately As A Result Of My Miraculous Recovery Im Afraid Despite The Extraordinary Acceptance I Received From Feferi Regarding How I Managed To Come By Such Rejuvenation That My Seemingly Uncontrollable Tendencies Will Alienate Every Individual I Hold Dear Or Even Worse That My Presence Will Cause Them Fatal Harm I Have No Means Of Nullifying
GA: I Wish I Could Claim Overreaction But Im Certain The Situation Is Much Too Serious To Minimize In Such A Manner
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CG: WHOA WHOA SLOW THE FUCK DOWN, NO ONE IS ALIENATING ANYONE.
CG: WHATEVER YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT, WE'LL FUCKING DEAL WITH IT.
CG: IT'S NOT LIKE FATAL HARM ISN'T RAPIDLY BECOMING A DAILY FIXTURE IN OUR LIVES ANYWAY.
CG: START FROM THE TOP, WHAT "UNCONTROLLABLE TENDENCIES" ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT?
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GA: Do You Recall What I Said About My Appetite Metamorphosing Into Something Different Than The Average Humans Because That May Not Have Been The Most Accurate Description I Have Produced In My Lifetime
GA: Since The Meteor Fell My Main Sustenance Has Been Composed Of Raw Meat But If I Had Any Reason To Be Doubtful Before Im Certain Now It Extends Beyond The Occasional Rare Steak And Is Leaning Towards Something Uncomfortably Anthropomorphic In Nature
GA: At The Very Least These Inclinations Are Not Constant Nor Frequent But They Are Overwhelming Enough When They Transpire That The Few Times They Have Occurred Ive Lost Myself In Some Sort Of Instinctual Rush Without Leaving So Much As A Memory Behind
She didn't realized she'd slipped, telling Karkat this had happened more than once.
If she could at least remember her actions this situation might not be so uncomfortable. She had had vague impressions what had happened but not any memories of making decisions. As it was she felt like a nuclear weapon liable to go off at any time and damage everyone in the vicinity. Perhaps one day she'd be able to remember and control herself during the attacks. But there was simply no guarantee. She felt dangerous, and not in a good way.
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CG: WAIT A MINUTE SO
CG: I REMEMBER YOU SAYING THAT YOU'RE BASICALLY A VAMPIRE.
CG: AND I HAVE CONSUMED ENOUGH VAMPIRE ROMANCE MEDIA TO KNOW THAT THIS MAY CONSTITUTE SOME FORM OF BLOOD LUST.
CG: WHICH IN REAL LIFE COMES OFF AS LESS SEXY AND ROMANTIC AND MORE CREEPY AS FUCK.
CG: BUT IT IS NORMAL.
CG: WAIT WHAT THE FUCK DID I JUST SAY, VAMPIRES EXISTING *AT ALL* IS NOT NORMAL.
CG: YOU GET WHAT I MEAN THOUGH.
CG: YOU CAN PROBABLY JUST ROB A BLOOD BANK OR SOMETHING.
CG: WAIT FUCK DO YOU NEED BLOOD TO SURVIVE NOW?
CG: HOW OFTEN ARE WE TALKING ABOUT HERE?
If someone had told Karkat that one day he would be legitimately trying to figure out how best to deal with having a vampire as a friend, Karkat would have laughed in their face. With all of the insane magical things going on, this somehow felt the most surreal. It was trashy fiction come to life.
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GA: Ideally The Beef Will Keep Me Fed And The Gushers Will Continue To Sate The Gnawing Desire To Utilize The Recent Sharper Additions To My Dentition But It Seems Certain Triggers Will Precipitate The Slippage Of My Control Over My Own Actions
GA: But I Have No Way Of Ascertaining What Those Triggers Are Although This Was The Premier Time I Was Injured Previous To An Attack And Since It Did Drastically Alter How Quickly My Already Heightened Healing Factor Works In A Beneficial Manner That Is A Likely Suspect
GA: The Only Other Time
GA:
GA: Oh
Kanaya could actually see her glow radiating around her as the embarrassing realization came over her. Rose had been so alluring during their date that she'd found herself leaning in to kiss her... when her body had other ideas. Namely, monstrously attacking her neck.
To think her libido would be a cause! While she didn't like the thought that her chances of intimacy would likely be limited in the future, it did give her some hope. After all, she had managed to pull herself away from Rose when she realized what was happening. She had some control.
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CG: OK SO BLOOD HELPS HEAL YOU, GOOD TO KNOW.
CG: NOW THAT YOU HAVE ME TRIPPING OVER MYSELF AND ROLLING ACROSS THE FUCKING GROUND WITH CURIOSITY, WHAT HAPPENED THE ONLY OTHER TIME?
Predictably, being a vampire just had to come with all of the drawbacks. Why couldn't she just get awesome speed and healing and shit without also craving human flesh?
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GA: In February I Asked A Friend Of Mine To Accompany Me On A Date The Goal Of Which Was To Further Our Relationship Past The Companionship We Had Already Spent A Significant Amount Of Time Cultivating
GA: The Date Took Place At The Pink Turtle Which Is Quite A Nice Gay Bar Should You Ever Get The Chance To Go The Staff Very Considerately Keeps The Floor Unobstructed By Glitter So Theres No Worry Of Slipping Especially In Heels
GA: She And I Had Maneuvered To The Dance Floor For Its Intended Purpose And If I Am Being Quite Honest Ideally For A Bit Of Canoodling But When I Leaned In To Initiate A Kiss I Was Suddenly Compelled To Bite Her Instead
GA: The Desire Caught Me Off Guard And I Made A Hasty Exit So Luckily She Did Not Come To Any Harm But Unfortunately I Did Encounter Another Person In The Alley And I Operated On Instinct From There Until Rose Subsequently Startled Me Out Of My Actions After Which We Traversed To Her Dorm Where We Administed Medical Aid And Arranged For The Man To Recover The Results Of Which I Dont Actually Know But I Suspect The Lack Of Headlines Implies He Survived The Night
She fingered the garment with almost-regular nails, wondering if her bites had the ability to turn others into vampires. She hadn't thought about it at the time, but... She'd have to keep tabs on Feferi's condition (she would've done that anyway but now she had an extra reason to do so).
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CG: OKAY SO NO MORE DATES FOR YOU.
CG: SORRY ABOUT THAT.
CG: OR AT LEAST FOR THE LOVE OF FUCK, NO CANOODLING.
CG: THAT IS, UNTIL WE FIGURE OUT HOW TO PREVENT YOU GOING FULL VAMPIRE.
CG: YOU REALLY HAVE NO CONTROL AT ALL?
CG: I DON'T WANT TO SUGGEST PUTTING YOU IN SITUATIONS WHERE YOU MIGHT LOSE CONTROL SO YOU CAN PRACTICE.
CG: BUT I CAN'T THINK OF ANY BETTER FUCKING PLAN.
CG: OTHER THAN ROBBING A BLOOD BANK. I STILL THINK WE SHOULD ROB A BLOOD BANK.
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GA: Feferi Offered To Provide Me With A Bag Of Her Own Blood For Emergencies And After Knowing Her For A Few Months I Feel Comfortable In Claiming Her Offers Are More Of An Omen Of Whats To Come Than A Possibility You Can Choose To Refuse
GA: I Was Certainly Able To Pull Away From Rose And Provided A Similar Opportunity I Could Probably Secure Myself Somewhere Until Im Able To Consume A Typical Animal Product Or A Stored Bag Saved For Such An Occasion Because That Incident Wasnt Nearly So Hazy I Was Able To Stop As Soon As Rose Called Out To Me
GA: I Do Believe Injury Causes My Body To Go Into More Of A Survival Mode And So As Much As I Do Not Wish It To Be The Most Likely Trigger Is Significant Physical Harm But To Be Honest I Dont Look Forward To Contributing To The Hard Evidence Portion Of That Theory
G: Your Suggestion Is Probably A Good Objective As It Is At Least A Feasible Route Of Forward Motion From The Seemingly Blocked Road I Was Metaphorically Glowering At Impatiently A Few Hours Ago Perhaps I Will Take Steps To Stake Out The Local Hospital I Believe I Could Pull Off Medical Garb Quite Fittingly And At Least The Florescent Lights Would Work To Disguise The Luminescence My Skin Exudes
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CG: YEAH WE'RE NOT GOING TO FUCKING INJURE YOU TO SEE IF WE CAN MAKE YOU GO CRAZY.
CG: FUCK NO.
CG: AND IF YOU TRUST FEFERI I'LL TRUST YOUR JUDGEMENT.
CG: I AM PROBABLY NOT THE BEST PERSON TO ASK GIVEN THAT THE ONE TIME I REALLY MET HER SHE DECIDED IT WOULD BE FUN TO FUCKING DECK ME WHEN MY BACK WAS TURNED.
CG: ALSO DRESSING UP AS A NURSE AND JUST CASUALLY STROLLING INTO A HOSPITAL SOUNDS LIKE A GLORIOUSLY RIDICULOUS COURSE OF ACTION.
CG: I WOULD NOT BE SURPRISED TO SEE THAT EXACT PLOT RECREATED ON A DISNEY CHANNEL TV SHOW.
CG: BUT YOU WILL PROBABLY NEED THE BLOOD IN THE FUTURE SO AS INANE AS THAT IDEA MOST LIKELY IS I WILL HELP YOU WITH THIS ENDEAVOR.
CG: I GUESS IT'S BETTER THAN BREAKING IN WEARING SKI MASKS.
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GA: Both Plans Have Benefits But Ski Masks Would Probably Be A Slightly More Ostentatious Strategy To Put Into Motion And I Believe We Are Going To Need All The Stealth And Time We Can Manage To Procure During The Absurd And Risky Operation
GA: Would You Like To Meet Up For Dinner Tomorrow And Discuss This Further
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CG: OKAY YEAH LET'S DO THAT.
CG: HAHAHA I CANNOT BELIEVE WE ARE ACTUALLY GOING TO DO THIS.
CG: THIS IS WHAT OUR FUCKING LIVES HAVE BECOME.
CG: IT'S ALMOST AS HILARIOUS AS IT IS INSANE.
CG: ANYWAY I GUESS I'LL SEE YOU TOMORROW THEN.
CG: TO PLAN OUR FUCKING HOSPITAL HEIST.
carcinoGeneticist [CG] ceased pestering grimAuxiliatrix [GA]
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grimAuxiliatrix [GA] ceased pestering carcinoGeneticist [CG]
Kanaya shut her laptop, feeling much calmer with a plan in motion. Now to go dig out that old nurse costume she'd worn last Halloween...